Video Spotlight: I’M FAT

“I have thought about doing this video for a long while and it’s going to do with my weight.”

Whilst Lucy Flight has never shied away from talking about her eating disorder and her relationship with food, she discusses her more recent struggles in this very honest video.

Lucy opens the video with a blanket trigger warning for anybody struggling with an eating disorder, and we would like to reiterate that here. Looking after your mental health should always come first!

“The way I have always dealt with stress is eating,” Lucy explains, saying that her private life is now far more stable than it was at the start of the year. She then goes on to talk about the things she has found more difficult since gaining weight, adding that not working out has had a negative impact on her mental health.

“I’m not ashamed, per say,” she is quick to point out. However, she feels she can’t do all of the things she wants to anymore. She emphasises her strength diminishing and how that has affected her personally. “Life is about thriving and being enjoyed, and at this current state… My actual body is not thriving!”

She goes on to explain the importance of exercising and filling yourself with good, healthy food. “Life is all about balance and I wasn’t doing balance before,” she says. “I absolutely still love food!” She explains that she feels she wasn’t balancing before and that she needs to bring herself from overindulgence to a more balanced way of living.

Lucy then points out that food is fuel and without good fuel she can feel lethargic. She notes that, of course, this is not cutting things out full stop, but simply reducing the frequency of unhealthy eating. “Things that were triggers for me prior… Where they were at 100 percent before, they’re now sat five percent,” she shares.

In order to explain what she means, she offers a car fuel analogy. If you fuel your car with the best fuel, it will run for longer and better than if you use a low-grade fuel.

Getting deeply personal, Lucy explains that the way she has been living is not ideal and isn’t helping her to be her best self. As a result, she wants to make a big change. She’s quick to point out that there is no bad food, as food doesn’t fall on a moral compass, and she wants to make it abundantly clear that she loves herself and is OK with how she looks and who she is. She just worries that she has been engaging in a lot of behaviours that are unsafe, and she pushes the message that weight, size and numbers on the scale are irrelevant and what matters is the healthiness of your lifestyle.

She adds that she’s started to make sure she’s properly hydrated and that the changes she’s implementing are entirely about how you actually feel. “I love giving,” she states, and being physically healthy allows her to be more generous. She adds that the few months of living less healthily hasn’t massively impacted her health and life, and once again urges that you can still enjoy unhealthy food. It isn’t about restriction, but balance.

Lucy admits she feels better and stronger after less than a week of changing her eating and exercising daily. She rounds out the video by making it clear that it doesn’t bother her when people comment on her weight, but that she wanted to share her story with those who may be struggling or who may have been curious.